On my YouTube channel (@KyTheGoddess), I discussed the discomfort I’ve been feeling since turning 30. Long story short, I’m grown, and the people I once knew are not the same. I don’t have the same support or friends I once had 10 years ago, and I’m mourning that fact. I’m grieving everything I thought I would be and everything I feel I missed out on in my 20, the choices I made. As I watch the younger generation come into their own, realizing that I’m no longer part of the younger generation has given me some serious whiplash.

Earlier this year, I made a pact with myself to relive my 20s all over again. I mean, why not? I’m smarter and more vibrant than ever at my young age. Turning 30 feels like a setup, leading you to believe that life is over and that you’ve entered “auntie” or “grandma” mode. Hell Naw, not me! I’m 21 again, and God knows I look like it. So why not pursue our wildest dreams—the ones we left behind? In a different post, we will discuss reliving our 20s, but for now, let’s finish where we left off in September 2020. I will be sharing the answers to the question I posed 4 years ago ……. What did I Plan to accomplish?

I wrote a post about the desires I planned to accomplish four years ago with the 1st being to focus on what makes me happy. I accomplished this goal by spending quality time with my family who brings me such joy, along with focusing on the growth in my spiritual journey. What makes me light up includes food, specifically trying new recipes, writing, beauty and self-care, and learning and expanding my knowledge.

The second desire is to heal myself—mind, body, and soul. I plan to accomplish this by reading and maintaining positive thoughts, cutting out meats and sugar in favor of whole foods, and engaging in higher self-meditations and talks.

The third desire is to change direction and go on a new path. I have changed my career and graduated in 2023, focusing on Behavioral Health Therapy and As She Wrote (ASW).

The fourth desire is to practice true self-love. I achieved this through isolation and healing, letting go, self-reflection, and doing the necessary work.

The fifth desire was to know myself better through shadow work. By utilizing self-discovery tools and practicing meditation, I was able to see clear results.

The sixth desire was to live passionately. I accomplished this by giving love, offering grace instead of judgment, and embracing my soft, gentle feminine era.

Lastly, the seventh desire was to create. I fulfilled this goal through art projects, writing, and family projects.. This includes understanding and rediscovering my love for art and crafts and for self-discovery while also exploring different interests.

Now that you know about my list of desires, why don’t you make your own? Sit down and really think of all the desires you wish to accomplish and create a list. If you need help, hit that contact button to schedule a one-on-one Love and Desire session with yours truly.

Happy Desire Hunting! 

In the meantime, check out my YouTube video “Mourning My 20s,” and don’t forget to subscribe to the site. 

Love you!