Being on this Spiritual Journey has me fighting with myself.

Have you ever felt what it was like to live through a manifestation? Knowing it has to come to life eventually But Just Don’t Know How or when.  

Wanting it. Planning on it. To take it visual.

Then as soon as you get it Everything seems to go quiet and numb and even fall apart,  But as the pieces are falling Somehow you don’t care like to usually would. You don’t even feel the same. The devil’s noise can’t get to you.

I’m still on a silent high. One where you don’t know or even understand what’s going on. Just in a daze watching everything happen. Sometimes time slows down often it speeds up. In a

Dream space none of that even matters. There’s not too much I believe I can control at the moment despite the teachings of the total opposite. When do you know what to believe?

Different timeline. Or just observing Fate. Trippy Daze without the shrooms. What is going on?

Memories thaw from when I was a little girl. Now I am reminded of an atmosphere I once knew. 

It doesn’t feel sane.

I feel not too many can relate and I simply can’t explain. 

Just know that nothing was the same.

Chat Break Down 

This reflection captures the complex emotional landscape of a spiritual journey. The author describes an internal struggle that arises during the process of manifestation, feeling the anticipation and struggle of something coming to fruition but grappling with uncertainty about how and when it will happen. 

When the desired outcome is achieved, there’s a paradoxical sense of numbness or detachment from the anticipated emotional responses. There’s a newfound perception, suggesting a shift in life where external turmoil loses its power. The author experiences a state of high awareness, akin to being in a dreamlike state, where time feels distorted and control seems elusive. 

Memories from childhood surface, evoking a sense of familiarity and connection yet highlighting a disconnect from reality. The author expresses feelings of isolation, suggesting that these experiences are hard for others to relate to, leading to a sense of confusion and questioning of beliefs. Ultimately, this journey is characterized by a profound transformation, where the author acknowledges a significant departure from their past self, embracing the unknown.