I’ve been feeling dry lately. Annoyed really because I feel like my writing has been very commercial. Very much like my personality, Do this not that. You got a problem I got the solution except when it comes to myself of course. Basically what I am saying is that this cut-and-paste bullshit, recycle material shit is blowing me. I get it, it’s helpful, and it’s part of the brand of self-development but I’m afraid I have developed myself out of my passion.

Today I saw a TikTok that said “Healed so hard that I don’t want to be a therapist or counselor anymore. I no longer want to be anyone’s “healer” or helper. I only want to be in a community with people who reciprocate my energy….also be a girl mom” and I felt that in my spirit. I don’t want to be a savior, of course, I want to experience the people I divinely have a connection with but I no longer desire to be a seeker. When relaunching my blog, my team and I came up with a lonely description of what this site would be about. I now see that I got it all wrong. Again I want to be clear that I am absolutely here to share my knowledge and resources with my community and that’s something that will never change but what I am saying is I need the freedom.

I’m focusing on my journey, with the goal of seeing a healed Goddess in the mirror. To feel for real, Deeply and sincerely. All of what I do is for healing purposes, to become a better woman and a better version of myself. Self-love, self-healing, and self-development are my passions because I had nobody to teach me these things. I had to learn how to love myself. How to develop myself into a soft young lady while healing the deep wounds inside of me. I realized that I couldn’t wait until someone decided to care about me and how I turned out so I did it myself. Now I share my learnings and things that helped me out on my journey and hope to be of assistance to other young black girls needed the same guidance I once needed.

I want to be free. Free from expectations and deadlines and research and analytics. The real tea is that this blog is all about me. What I want to write about. My experiences, my life, my photos, me Me ME! My digital diary footprint. This year I’m stepping out my box and becoming the healed version of me that I desire. So I’m heavy on I only want to be in a community with people who reciprocate my energy….and to also be a girl mom. I want to focus my life on growing a garden in my home, Making homemade Shea butter for my babies. Creating delicious meals for my family. Reading luscious books and baking luscious pies in a classy nightgown. Then sit down in my office oasis and write my little heart out.

There is a lot of things I don’t believe in but this is the year I become magical. Every desire will be granted, pulling all my manifestations into my reality. I thank the universe today for showing me just how good life can get. If I had a freeway billboard, what would it say? Is the prompt of the today. My daughter and I joke all the time that she will be the girl Rafi of her city. So of course I would gift it to her as an epic experience, but now I think about me. If I was able to have two, I definitely see my lash business on the billboard but without preconceived notions, it would be my most famous quote with my beautiful face as a show out. That pretty much sums up what all of this is about. A young woman navigating a path toward authenticity and self-acceptance while shedding the constraints and distractions that have hindered her true voice.