You ever feel like… you’ve somehow drifted from yourself? That’s where I’ve been lately. I’m realizing I’ve always been the same person. Since a little girl. Still her. Still carrying her dreams, her depth, her softness. Somewhere in the middle of the chaos, the adulting, the healing, I forgot her. Within the realm of Gaia 2025. She’s waking up. And she’s coming home to herself.

The last few months , I’ve been in a bit of a detached state. Not numb exactly, just… distant. Like I was living but not really alive. You know those days where you’re doing all the things but something feels off? That was me. Spiritually, mentally, emotionally. It was exhausting to be fully present.

Then came the triggers. Out of nowhere. You think you’ve moved past something and boom, there it is again. A flashback. A feeling. A thought that spirals. I was caught right in the middle of my trauma responses, trying to ground myself and not spiral back into old patterns.

Instead of shutting down or pretending I was fine, I took a breath and let myself feel it. Let myself break. Let myself rest. I had to ask “Where is this really coming from?” Forcing myself to see the truth even though the mirror was too foggy to recognize. Is this imposter syndrome. Not the kind that whispers “you’re not good enough”—but the kind that makes you question if the person you’re becoming is real. If you’re really evolving, or just pretending. But the realest part of me has always been there. The sorrow and loneliness I feel. Since the beginning. I’m not faking it, I promise. It just been a pain to remember.

So I’m going back to what’s always use to ground me as a little girl. Daily prayer. Quiet time with God. Slowing down. Listening. Venting. Tuning back in. Gaia 2025 is about wholeness. About peace. About reclaiming the rhythm I want to have when I trust my spirit more than my fears.

I’m not rushing anymore. I’m not trying to prove anything to anyone. I’m just coming back to myself. Softly. Fully. Faithfully.

Affirmation: I honor where I am. Every step, Every breath, all emotions are apart of my healing. I know my heart. I don’t have to suffer to be whole.