Being pregnant is the ultimate level of womanhood.

Its the only time I felt completly whole.

I’ve dreamed of motherhood since I was a little girl. Taking my babies everywhere, dressing, feeding, naming them. Imagining Pregnancy. This to me is what it is to be complete a whole woman. Going all the way to the point of conception, creation. The maker of life. Sadly this phase only last 9-10 months and as someone who enjoys pregnancy this time goes by extremely too fast. After birth society expects you to carry on like normal but how. When my chemical makeup has completely been altered. Im not the same, to never be how I once was before.

The rapid change and growth does not slow down. In some cases things speed up. Like I said I always looked foward to these moments in my reality. I haven’t thought about the ending of the cycle though. When you experienced the “Congratulations” two many times than the one baby before. That label. The last baby label Is like screeches to my ears.

I refuse to agree, My years aren’t up just yet. So no need for that stress. In the meantime I’ll settle for coping with the default setting of myself.

Alone.

With my own thoughts and connections.

– Signed baby making Years.