Desire

I know this sounds weird but I received a message from God. He told me I haven’t been clear with my desires. That the very love that I spent building has also been torn down by the same hands. I guess I’m trying to make you into perfection. However, that’s not for me to build. I was told that fear takes place in this desire due to these negative attributes. 2 steps forward 3 steps back. My desire does not feel good enough for me. Scared That I will find a new one. One that can bring more joy. How my desire has found a new house to accommodate in. But the house you see is not my home where my desire rather be. He said It seems like it’s up to me to invite this desire back into my home. To make it feel safe again after the distrust on both of our parts are gone. I guess I just have to trust that the commitment is there. That my desire will become one with who I plan to be. That is Not afraid of judgement coming from me. So I sit here and think. On how I can become a better me. So my desires can finally cherish me. I know I make you feel high. I know you can’t imagine me out of your life. I know that I make you better and that your soul is tied to mines. I know that I’m the one and that I can be safe in this space. Just needing time to grow into this safe place, Of my desire.