As She Wrote

I’m just sick of it all 

I’m trying my best    

But the way I truly feel is unimaginable. These past few weeks has been terrible. I’m very close to giving up or exploding whichever collapses me first. 

I’m trying my best not let it happen . Honestly I just want to go far far away from everybody . Everyday I feel like I’m going crazy and Nobody understands me. 

I’m seriously hurting 

I want to give up every single day. 

I don’t see a future 

I’m tired of fighting yelling 

living in messs and confusion constantly. Caring for everyone everyday gets exhausting. I’m not even 33 yet and I feel like my best years already happened. 

Like this is it. 

Nothing else to look forward to. 

It’s a painfully reality really.

Just carrying around these big feelings and everyday I’m trying my best just to make it without destroying everything I’ve built. 

I just don’t feel special anymore 

It may not show in reality but it’s how I’ve been feeling lately. 

All I know is to always try your best